It’s Not About Me…

I am sitting in my cozy living room which we just decorated for Christmas.  The Christmas music is playing, the candles burning, and the lights are twinkling.  Thanksgiving is over for most, but I’m not sure it will ever be over for me.  I must be honest, I love all the Christmas coziness I can see and feel right now, but Thanksgiving is my absolute favorite holiday.  It has been my favorite holiday for years, but this year just seals the deal.  I am so thankful…  that sounds so trite, but it is true - a huge understatement, actually!

Our Thanksgiving this year was not ideal, two of my four kids were not home for Thanksgiving Day and we have had a couple of recent deaths in the family on my step-dad’s side, which made for some sadness all around.  Still, I couldn’t help thinking on both Wednesday and on Thursday as I baked and cooked and worked all day long - 2 days in a row - just how thankful I am.  Was I tired?  Yes, exhausted!  But, I did it!  I am walking this year.  It’s so amazing!  Every year we sit down at Thanksgiving and we think of and talk about all of the things we are thankful for.  All of which are so important.  But this year was so different for me.  In a year when I should be down, nothing could get me down.  I had some sad moments, I missed my kids, but for the most part I was just so thankful to be walking and working away in the kitchen.   How awesome just to spend time with family with my little red scooter tucked away in the garage, never to be seen.  I kept thinking about last year….  And all I could do was smile.

I looked back at my entry last year and I wrote, “I am really longing for the “old” me to return already!  I wake up every morning and subconsciously think this is the day I will walk again and everything will go back to normal.  But, it doesn’t happen.  I am having fun driving, now - but oh how I miss walking.”  Wow!  Doesn’t that just say it all?  I remember it like it was yesterday.  I had just gotten hand controls on my vehicle, so was able to drive with my hands and I was so thrilled, yet it was becoming a realization that I may very well never walk again.  All I can say is…  Just look at me now!  Not only am I walking, but better than I have in about 5 years.  I am walking without even using my cane or any aids 90% of the time!  Wow!  If you don’t know if God works miracles anymore, I am here to tell you that He does!  I am a “walking” miracle.

So, from my family to yours…  Happy Thanksgiving!  WHAT AN UNDERSTATEMENT!